joethy-

2011-10-17T09:29:00.000-07:00

its exremely tiring.
i just need a person. who can pay attention and listen in
what my bags are.
i m young. i agreed.
but dont judge me that i dont have commitments.
i have invisible bags.
i m human.
i have the rights to be sad too

2011-06-12T12:13:00.001-07:00

i want to give up my past. and start my life afresh. m working. earning.saving. so can u promise me sth? its very easy. dont hunt me down anymore. dont exist in my life

2011-06-12T10:14:00.001-07:00

burning. burning.

so i guess. its time to make it all stop.

clear the fire.

let freedom flows in

2011-05-25T07:49:00.000-07:00

能轻易放弃的
那就不是爱
为何要骗自己和他人
放弃吧
你并不爱

所以多说也没用

2011-05-22T02:43:00.001-07:00

好心好報 – 方力申∕鄧麗欣
Being good gives good return – Alex Fong/Stephy Tang

Ａ：落力為你好　得不到分數
Doing my best for you at whatever cost
你決定要跟　他日後同步
You have decided to be with him [follow him from now on]
他不懂愛惜你　我樂意操勞
He doesn’t know how to love you, but I’m willing to put in the effort to do so.

Ｓ：我決意愛他　祝我愉快吧
I’ve decided to love him. Please wish me happiness.
你最明白我　痛極亦留下
You are the one who understands that no matter how painful it is, I will not leave.
傷得很重也不怕　我願意等他
I’m not scared of being hurt deeply; I’m willing to wait for him.

Ａ：還看著你（Ｓ：他會感動嗎）
Still I watch you (he will be touched),
看你在懸崖走路（Ｓ：他亦跑掉嗎）
I watch you going on the road to the cliffs (he will run with me)
他卻放下你　只照顧自己
He will release you and only take care of himself.

Ｓ：我慣了愛他　你怎樣做
在懸崖還是　我無退路
I am use to loving him. Why do you persist in this when I am not going to retreat.

＊Ａ：對你好　無人稀罕我好
Be good to you. No one cherishes my goodness.
無人欣賞我好　原來你習慣他一套
No one appreciates my goodness. It’s because you are use to him [his cover].
從來沒有　愛我　看得清楚我知道
I can see that you have never loved me
不必得到　不妨陪襯　但願為你好
I know that I cannot be with you or interfere, but maybe that is good for you.

Ｓ：他　從來都比你差　仍然死心愛他
He is very worse than you, but still I really love him.
垂頭再度聽他欺詐　期求他說　愛我＊
He lets me down and I hear he is a bad person [cheat]. I hope he says that he loves me.
為何尚未等到　可能　這秒時辰未到
I am still waiting for this. Maybe it isn’t time yet.
Ａ：是受罪也好　聽聽你哭訴
If suffering is good, I hear you unhappily complain.
你說難過總　比分手更好
You say that you have such a hard time that you prefer to break up.
Ｓ：我說幾多的女主角　也受過煎熬
I say, how many female leads have also suffered this torture?
Ａ：情況壞到（Ｓ：他也許做到）
The bad circumstance is here (Perhaps he can do it)
你信任來年一日　他答應做到（Ｓ：他也許做到）
The day that you believe that he promises that he can do it (Perhaps he can do it)
通通都做到
He keeps saying that he can do it

合：我也似你的無從勸告
寧願犧牲都不願卻步
I am like you- never take advice. I would rather sacrifice myself than to turn back.

Ｒｅｐｅａｔ＊
Ｓ：知你愛我
我竟扮未知道　好人　恕我未能做到
I know you love but I pretend that I do not know. Forgive me, I am unable to be a good person yet.

Ａ：你當我是知己　我看得到
I can see that you treat me like I am your soulmate.
我當你是一生前途
I treat you as the only reason of my life.
Ｓ：幾次也是沉迷麻目　控制不到
When can you stop being bewitched
合：怎麼好都等不到
What is it so good that you cannot wait?
Ａ：怎去做　無人珍惜我好
how to do it. No one treasures my goodness.
無人喜歡我好　原來要學會他一套
No one likes that I am good. So I have to learn how to be like him [his cover.]
從來沒有　吻過　記得清楚　我知道
I clearly remember we have not kissed
不必得到　不妨陪襯　但願為你好
I know that I cannot be with you or interfere, but maybe that is good for you.
Ｓ：好　從來都知你好（Ａ：未夠好）
I’ve always known you’re good (not good enough)
為何他不夠好（Ａ：我不夠好）
why He is not good enough
回來我又與他擁抱
Returning to him, I want his embrace.
合：仍然相信我會　有好心得好報
Still, I believe that if I be good, I will get a good return
可能　到某日會知道
May be, that day I will understand.

2011-05-21T04:38:00.000-07:00

starting to panic. because some ppl de birthday is reaching~ OMG

2011-05-19T11:29:00.000-07:00

2011-04-20T08:56:00.001-07:00

beauty advisor~
retail assistant~
Hr~

2011-04-17T02:28:00.001-07:00

因为习惯所以很难

2011-04-11T09:32:00.000-07:00

心病' 谁能救救我
我快要不
不行

太坏了

真的'

2011-04-07T10:52:00.001-07:00

i dont know why.
but i m really missing u

2011-04-04T09:58:00.001-07:00

u know what i dislike most?

liars. that lie because of benefits. selfishness. greed.

and for all those wrong reasons.
i know.
i know u dont know i know. but i know. strangely, i feel nothing. why.
because u aint important to me anymore.

bye.

2011-03-26T11:51:00.000-07:00

Love does not mean it has to be obvious. sometimes Obvious is the opposite of what it seen to be.
disappointed.

2011-03-14T12:47:00.000-07:00

2011-03-14T12:39:00.000-07:00

honestly, i love his singing. lala~

2011-03-11T01:25:00.000-08:00

2011-03-07T11:09:00.000-08:00

i like to say things and i didnt mean it at all.
i know i am abit stupid.
but i am trying to improve on that.
haha.

one thing i am confident with is the way i can make myself happy. :)

and i have my goals, dreams and future to hold on. so i never stop for anybody anymore.

its not that i didnt give chances. i think that you got to make ppl believe in u that u worth it. dont ask people to give chances.
prove and make people realise U should give them chances.

stay positive, i hate people who is desperate and super negative who cant even self-help themselves. so i think u should wake up and face reality.

by the way, u can dont contact me anymore. i really appreciate the way u disappear. so keep it up and dont return. :)

i <3 my life regardless of all those things happening around me. yes. very sad and disappointing.

but i know how to elimate these things out of my life. and maybe even the PEOPLE out of my life.

stay cool and say bye.
dont cry. look pathetic

2011-02-28T05:01:00.000-08:00

2011-02-19T07:55:00.000-08:00

2011-02-13T07:26:00.000-08:00

2011-02-12T23:42:00.001-08:00

headaches.

2011-02-10T00:16:00.001-08:00

today is friday. happy day. because satursday and sunday can rest!
hopes i didnt forget i got appointment with anybody. if have please remind me man.
:)
haha. u all know. i am like that one lah. so text me ya. LOL

2011-02-04T06:53:00.000-08:00

cutie pie <3

2011-02-03T08:01:00.001-08:00

and then. graduation is reaching. my future is still blur. hope i will be able to get the job i want~
lala

2011-01-30T07:15:00.000-08:00

你说有甜有时是酷

我回答对你就只有冷冰冰

2011-01-28T22:34:00.000-08:00

2011-01-24T07:16:00.000-08:00

everytime i blog something that is some sort of scolding ppl or what.
the very very next day i look at my blog. and i will like.
hmm.. this post is about what ah.
LOL.

:) missing my gfs like a now~ :(

2011-01-20T07:50:00.000-08:00

你愛的歌不再聽了誰在我心裡哼
你愛的顏色我該忘的偏偏又選了
我開始懷疑你沒離開
否則太奇怪
睡覺吃飯從我的習慣都證明你存在

你是壞習慣我戒不斷我的心不聽使喚
我犯了又犯像個笨蛋這世界一片混亂
愛已走散忘記太難但會習慣

你的生日我不慶祝了但我卻還記得
你悲傷快樂我不參加了卻總還掛念著
我開始懷疑你沒離開
否則太奇怪
睡覺吃飯從我的習慣都證明你存在

你是壞習慣我戒不斷我的心不聽使喚
我犯了又犯像個笨蛋這世界一片混亂
愛已走散忘記太難但會習慣

你是壞習慣我戒不斷我的心不聽使喚
我犯了又犯像個笨蛋這世界一片混亂
愛已走散忘記太難但會習慣壞習慣戒不斷壞習慣

壞習慣
-leejiuze

2011-01-17T06:47:00.000-08:00

this time. the knife is really too sharp.
thats why it went so deep into my heart.

give me more time. to get use to this harsh reality.

and learn to let go. and forgive u guys totally.

for the time being.

2011-01-12T07:10:00.001-08:00

if u are given a chance to have one true friend.
or many Good friends. which one u want?

i want one true friend. to me, its not about having alot. thats why i am giving up all that are not true.

i am not afraid of losing. i am just afraid of keeping insincere ones beside me.
like a bomb.

i want them gone

2011-01-11T05:16:00.000-08:00

是不是因为我不说所以你不知道我有多痛

算了你走吧

走了别回来

2011-01-08T10:07:00.000-08:00

你就真的认为你的对不起多有用吗？

2011-01-05T21:20:00.001-08:00

she was like,'of allpain why tolerate such pain.' its serious and dont think its nothing. but i get to bargain with her. and end up with 1 week medication then on 2 weeks. woo~ and of coz. as usual she gave me 2 days mc. lala~

2011-01-04T06:33:00.000-08:00

2011-01-02T22:30:00.000-08:00

And if i open my heart to you
i'm hoping you show me what to do
And if you help me to start again.
you know that i'll be there for you in the end~

:)

2011-01-02T00:36:00.000-08:00

<3 these 2 pairs of shoes!!

thanks mum <3

hahahaha. asked her to buy the white for me. black i pay myself.end up she pay both!
lalalala~

2011-01-01T02:54:00.000-08:00

there are so many things left unsaid.
its not that i dont want to share.
its just that i dont know how to share.
dont take your positions to force me.
i know u all care. i love u all alot.
i know u all love me alot.
but sometimes i really dont know how to cut myself open and let go all of those unsaid.

i want to safe keep that fragile side of me.
i want myself to have a strong front.
i know i can.
just let me be. if i can, i will share.
but my problems. said it out. it doesnt makes me feel better understand?
it doesnt.
because i said them out. but yet cannot solve. all i get is just encouragements and words to cheer me up.
no. i dont need that.

i need solutions.
but i know some problems there are no solutions.
so why bother.

dont .
dont say i dont bother. dont say i dont care.

how many times u actually seek me through. and hear me crying inside.
u cant. all u see is that coldness and that coolness u thought i am.

dont silly. u dont understand me.
u dont know what else i am holding on.
to just myself.

but i believe i will make it through. trust me.

i love u all. really. trust me. i can de.

2010-12-30T01:48:00.000-08:00

year 2007 is the year i lose the most impt thing to me.which is why 2010 is bullshit to me but i dont really care.It is suppose to be worst.but 2007 is still the worst.Of all these years.2007 the one is the only one i cared the most.
because is the best i ever had. and i didnt know how to treasure it.
2010 is belongs to those people that comes and go in my life. but all these are not as impt as the one.
because they dont worth it.

so 2007 is the year i make a

huge big mistake. because its my fault.
and i wont want to repeat it anymore.
2011 welcome :)

2010-12-26T05:52:00.000-08:00

not your age.
but your mindset

2010-12-25T22:04:00.000-08:00

stop thinking whatever i did, i carry a motive.
dont change my simple thinking into yours. too complicated.
its a pure gift.
nothing else i want in return.

stop taking me into someone like u.
i hate it

2010-12-25T03:13:00.000-08:00

power of love

2010-12-21T09:06:00.000-08:00

2010-12-20T10:09:00.000-08:00

happy little fatter me.

hehes
<3

2010-12-20T00:27:00.000-08:00

dont take my silence for granted.

dont take my trust and make use of me.

i know.

i just pretend i know nothing.

and now. nothing is left. just the empty self i am giving. because of lies.

worthless ppl

2010-12-19T19:11:00.000-08:00

i love the feeeling of waking up. seeing something that can make me smile. a little bit of small surprise. or just.
anything that can make me smile.
love it.
love that special little feeling.
that keep me whole day happy.
<3

:)
make me smile more can u.
:D

2010-12-19T08:02:00.000-08:00

i used to say i cant live without you. Now. i realise i live happier without you.

which means. its all bout mindset thinggy.

i really am happier. and fatter ~ woo!

:) :)

btw, the video singer is NYP MIT course one. haha.

2010-12-16T06:45:00.001-08:00

2010-12-14T06:11:00.000-08:00

2010-12-13T04:04:00.000-08:00

this freaking person sings so nice lo can. that guy. is freak. HAHHAAHHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAAH

2010-12-11T23:11:00.000-08:00

self majkkke avoocadoo millkk!!!!!
:)

2010-12-11T11:30:00.000-08:00

i think thats, its so tiring.
even my close ppl didnt understand
but my misery
is just too much, iwanna be alone. everything is so fake.\
ppl fake.

truthfulness is all gone.
starting to dislike

2010-12-10T04:43:00.001-08:00

oh my. christ celeb at boss house is shiok!!!

all of them are so nice nice. i starting to love them. but i scare.
later i need to go off time will very sad .
nice right . one of the colleague draw and give me as present for xmas. wonderful ppl.
<3 wonderful supervisor.
she's been taking care of me well. <3

2010-12-09T09:36:00.001-08:00

2010-12-07T07:21:00.000-08:00

2010-12-06T08:46:00.000-08:00

i am happy glad. relieve.

but as for my work

OMG.
EXCEL :X

2010-12-05T09:32:00.001-08:00

if i admit i am a bitch,
will u pluck up your courage and admit u are a jerk?
lol.

hate ppl. lie lie lie. kena caught also dont want to admit.

omg. i am not blind. i am not really stupid until cannot make it those kind. even if i am. one day truth will still be out..
if u are ok with ur conscience . then be it. go ahead.

i have alway wishing ppl have the best. everytime. even though i scold i said hope u all get back retribution.
but still. go ahead. have the best,.
have what u deserve.

go ahead. i am ok. i am fine. hurt. sad. whatever. i alway know how to self cure myself.
isit this my life? its alway been like that.
i am alway that idiot. that believe ppl are good. trust them. but they alway lie to me. so. what can i do. its my life.

i own it. all i can do is. still. dont bother. i am fine. laugh. smile. as i deserve them or not.

i wont dwell on. i cant. and i wont.

carry on ppl. lie. cheat. bluff. hope u all dont get back what u all have done.

how much of the sentences are true? seriously.

wake up. stop the mistakess.

2010-12-02T05:00:00.000-08:00

2010-12-01T09:08:00.000-08:00

2010-11-28T07:59:00.000-08:00

puuayaya joo cammeerraaa <3

love her lots. our 10 years++ shipship still on!! :) :)

2010-11-27T09:53:00.000-08:00

well. maybe. nope. not maybe.

she is right.

time's up. i got to leave.

dont belong there. then should not even appear there anymore.

i want to leave. a peacefully one.

silent one

2010-11-26T06:44:00.000-08:00

fyp fypo fyofyofyfoyfoyf

2010-11-25T08:25:00.000-08:00

dj got us falling in love again~
<3

2010-11-23T06:17:00.000-08:00

2010-11-22T09:06:00.000-08:00

mocha~

2010-11-21T06:03:00.000-08:00

the best part about being at KLP. is i alway get free food.
and darren dont have :) HAHAAHA

free lunch. free ice cream free rojak. send to me direct somemore.
and its alway sudden. and surprise. thanks to those kind thai village uncle and vegetarian food uncle.

2010-11-20T07:48:00.000-08:00

because darren leaves me alone

who gives me my chance? i am being treat like that. and i still have to swallow down.pplasks me to dont care like a easy like that.I want to speak out.Every single truth.But i swallow it back.i wait and see. retributionretribution.

i dont blame them. because guess u lied tothem. like how u liee to me.
your surface looks so good.

but inside you are half rottenn.

in long run. u will suffer.
so why bother to talk big? u are poor in a sense of money.
poor in a sense of characterr,

because u are selfish. and the selfish is really to the max those kinds.
cheater. liar.
player.

watch out. watch out.

then it be too late.

i wait and see.

2010-11-19T07:12:00.000-08:00

bugis trip~ thanks buddy for treating me eat an expensive dinneer... <3

wish everything goes well for u. :)

am always with you.
jia you jia you.

2010-11-16T23:36:00.000-08:00

别说我没烦恼。

我的难过你懂多少。

我的问题你了解多少。

什么都不知道就别猜

2010-11-14T07:43:00.001-08:00

when you choose to leave,dont ever think of coming back.When you still wants to come back.Canwhy not?But dont thinks that everything can still be the samelike the past.when you leave,and choose to come back.its just friend.so,dont bother to probe into ''too much.u are no longer that important to me anymore

which means. we are from the scratch. normal friends. no need to know so much about my stuffs

no need to CONTROL my life.
no need to ASK so MUCH.

because i hate to be ASKed. like as though i am your girlfriend.

2010-11-13T10:12:00.000-08:00

2010-11-12T10:26:00.001-08:00

2010-11-11T07:49:00.000-08:00

2010-11-10T04:43:00.000-08:00

oh no. sick sick sick.
are u in love with me? my new phrase. HAHAAHAHA

2010-11-08T05:36:00.000-08:00

love princess~~

2010-11-07T01:13:00.000-07:00

2010-11-04T22:27:00.001-07:00

please dont stop the music.

2010-11-04T22:15:00.000-07:00

2010-11-04T06:18:00.000-07:00

ni bu zhhii dao. wo you duo nan guo.

wo hen nn li. kx.

i want to slowly take away the knife that is being stabbed into my heart. its half in. half out.

left the half in. i will slowly step by step pull it out.till the whole knife is out.

2010-11-02T19:10:00.001-07:00

i wanted you to be happy and have the best so i keep trying to see what can be done.But i overlook it.I forget that i have to be happy myself in order to help others sincerely.So i am back to square 1.myself.and not bothering you anymore is the best outcome.

for what. when some problems really cannot solve. even money also cannt solve.
its ok.Overlook it. it actually is nt a problem. is the mindset that set it as a problem.

2010-11-01T07:37:00.000-07:00

alot of things i dont understand. but they are keep hurting me.
so
let time do the talking.

2010-11-01T00:21:00.000-07:00

thats why they say pay back time its double.
this time. it really doubles.
and the situation is abit similar.
but also worsseerr then the previous one.

but. thats the cycle. u put sth bad behind. when it catch up with u. its double pay back. i accept it.

because it lets me understand alot whole out of life. and should i say. i still need to learn more. which means more setbacks in future.

but i am sure i can make it. woo~ :) i will survivie~ heheheyyyejheyeyey~~

i am in love with someone who is in love with himself. doesnt this familiar.

but the best part is. healing is not as worse as past.

i will survivivieei heyeyehehehyyh~~ LOL.

2010-10-28T22:48:00.000-07:00

she said she will be her finacial support.
but she reply.
i want. But i forget to throw away my heart.

2010-10-27T04:39:00.001-07:00

这街上太拥挤
太多人有秘密
玻璃上有雾气在被隐藏起过去
你脸上的情绪
在还原那场雨
这巷弄太过弯曲走不回故事里

2010-10-25T08:03:00.000-07:00

its not that i dont know.
i know but i want to believe.
its beautiful. though its not.
it is. :)
believe me. it is.
but its not the time yet.

beautiful~~ :) :)

2010-10-25T05:57:00.000-07:00

明知道愛情並不牢靠但是我還是拼命往裡跳
明知道再走可能是監牢但是我還是相信只是煎熬
朋友都勸我不要不要不要拿自己的幸福開玩笑
但是做人已經那麼累假惺惺的想要逃
在愛裡連真心都不能給這才真正的可笑
愛得太真太容易讓自己犧牲太容易讓自己沉淪
太容易不顧一切滿是傷痕
我太笨明知道你是錯的人
明知道這不是緣分但是我還奮不顧身
明知道愛情並不牢靠但是我還是拼命往裡跳
明知道再走可能是監牢但是我還是相信只是煎熬
朋友都勸我不要不要不要拿自己的幸福開玩笑
但是做人已經那麼累假惺惺的想要逃

在愛裡連真心都不能給這才真的真正的可笑
愛得太真太容易讓自己犧牲太容易讓自己沉淪
太容易不顧一切滿是傷痕
我太笨明知道你是錯的人
明知道這不是緣分但是我還奮不顧身
可能在愛裡面這樣算笨
可能永遠沒有所謂永恆
但是我不願放棄這裡面一點點可能寧願笨也不想要悔恨
愛得太真太容易讓自己犧牲太容易讓自己沉淪太容易不顧一切滿是傷痕
我太笨明知道你是錯的人明知道這不是緣分但我還是奮不顧身
我太笨明知道你是錯的人明知道這不是緣分但我相信有點可能

2010-10-23T23:15:00.000-07:00

ubin trip~ <3 woo.. happy happy.

2010-10-23T10:24:00.001-07:00

i amtrying my best to focus on the goods.but whenever i think of what you have done to me. your sorry is worthless. its just words. i sincerely hope that u will get the best.Karma dont get to u.

wish u all the best. receive the best. selfish is not wrong. But sometimes if your selfish can hurts other badly. your selfish is wrong.

good luck

2010-10-23T10:24:00.000-07:00

2010-10-22T08:53:00.000-07:00

watched P actitvyy 2~

2010-10-18T07:35:00.000-07:00

u might as well tell me. Joethy yan .............76384%&^%%^$%$$^&
HAHAHA.
SELFISH.
i very long never feel so........already.
Come on lah. if you want to lie. Lie a perfect one. dont lie till so jia lat.
lie until u llook like a loser.
lie until u want to act pity.
LOSER

2010-10-15T06:13:00.000-07:00

maybe u have forgotten our promises.
maybe one day you will regret.
maybe one day you realise things do not need to come to such a stage.
maybe one day you will wake up and realise this is a mistake.

maybe.

2010-10-14T07:42:00.001-07:00

but

i love you

2010-10-14T06:04:00.000-07:00

because you cant decide.
because you are heartless.
because you dont love me that much.

thats why i can recover so fast.
lalalala~

2010-10-09T05:38:00.000-07:00

i forget. there is no if.

broken heart needs time to fix it back.

2010-10-02T09:34:00.000-07:00

maybe i choose to close the door. then learn learn learn absorb absorb absorb.

no failures wont bring u to real success.
no saddness wont bring u to real happiness.

2010-09-22T08:13:00.000-07:00

sep 18th. meet meet after FYP and her attachment. woo. hell lots of fun. and talking nonsenseesss....
haha :)oo

2010-09-20T00:28:00.001-07:00

2010-09-20T00:28:00.000-07:00

2010-09-19T08:34:00.000-07:00

love.

2010-09-15T18:33:00.001-07:00

u say that i am the best.
but the way you treat me makes me feel that i am not at the best.
so i try and try and try and try. to do more and more and more.
till.
i think i have given over too much. and things are not being appreciated.
am being taken for granted.
nothing is improving for me. looks like its more of excuses and excuses and excuses.

so. i am taking back. one by one. till one day. i take everything back.
:)